I Wish I Would Have Known
By, Jessica Gushard
I wish I would have known that forced smile on my face would soon be a smile I can’t wipe away. I wish I knew those little eyes would turn blue and stare at me to tell me it’s okay. I wish I knew that palmer crease on your left hand would soon grip my finger at every feeding telling me I’m needed. I wish I knew all that hair would soon go in a ponytail and make your brothers laugh until they fell to the ground. I wish I knew that despite all the unknowns and scares with a diagnosis, you would make us better people. I wish I knew how many friends we would soon make and have by our side every step of the way. I wish I knew how much life would change for the better.
Briggs Barrington, I’m scared for our new life, but most importantly, I’m excited and confident we are going to have a great one.
Diagnosis day is no joke, but day by day, it becomes a smidge easier. #upsyndrome #lovemyhomie